Speed Bumps

     I love that the title of the series our Pastor is doing is called "Speed Bumps. "  We have been waiting for over a year now for our adoption.  For those of you that do not know, we are held up right now.  Taiwan changed their laws earlier than expected and we are waiting for them to transition.  We got our paperwork done right after the deadline of them taking paperwork. (Speed Bump 1)
     Two days after I posted my last blog I had a bit of a health scare.  I was overdosed on Vitamin D and thyroid medicine that my doctor had prescribed.  I have been on thyroid medicine for 3 years because mine is a little under active.  The doctor had not been watching my blood work and they gave me too much.  Needless to say my body did not like that at all.  At the same time Kent had to have rotator cuff surgery.  He had hurt his shoulder at work.    It was suppose to be a simple orthoscopic surgery.  His surgery ended up taking 4 incisions and 23 staples to fix the tear.  (Speed Bumps 2 & 3)
     While all of this was happening we also got some more news.  Lifesong will not match our fundraising funds for the adoption. (Speed Bump 4)
     I have to say that during all of these speed bumps we had a lot of time to just take in each other and take in the Lord.  We talk all the time about his timing being just right.  Here is an example of how his plan is greater than ours.  All of these events happened the summer of the drought.  This means since it is summer the kids were home.  We had extra help around the house.  Since it has been so dry the grass has not been growing and Kent has not had to mow much.  Normally Kent has quite a few burials.  If he has a full burial it takes so much more work than a cremation.  The last full burial he has had to do was the day he hurt his shoulder.  He has had many burials since that day but they have all been cremations, lifting a huge amount of work off of him.
     I have learned so much about my Father through out this whole experience.  There was one specific night when I was having a really hard time sleeping.  Kent had just had his surgery.  He had taken pain medicine that made him rather sleepy.  I did not want to wake him to tell him I was having a hard time.  I laid out like a cross on the bedroom floor praying with all I had to my Father.  I then heard him say "Monica why don't you come to me more often when you are in need?  I am your Father and you go to Kent to help you instead of me.  He is your husband but he is human just like you.  If you want supernatural help you have to come to the inventor of supernatural".  Big lesson learned right there!
     We just received our 5th speed bump in the last couple of months.  We were going to be able to adopt from the Organization that we were because they did not have the rule that you must have to have $80,000 in assets to be able to adopt.  Our home and Kent's truck are part of his pay at his job.  Since we do not have our name on them because they are provided through his employer we are not eligible to adopt from most agencies that have a Taiwan program.  This organization was different, we were so excited.  Now that they have to partner with an agency we do not know if the Taiwan door will stay open for us.  We talked to our social worker about foster adopting is the US.  In order for us to have that option and keep our hearts open to Taiwan we would have to switch agencies and maybe start our home study all over again.
     Now what?  We pray!  We pray that we know God put all of those speed bumps there for a reason.  We pray and ask for direction and guidance.  I know that it is his will not mine.  I want whatever he has for my life and nothing less.  So I pray that the doors that are suppose to be open will open and our hearts will spot them.  I pray for our child and for their mother.  I pray that my Father uses our story to inspire or help someone who is walking or will be walking this same path.  I pray for all of you.  I pray that you know when you have hit a speed bump.  Those speed bumps all of them are there for a reason.  Take that time to deepen your faith and get closer to the one that longs for you to be close.  Our God is taking care of our family.  He is doing it in a much different way then I imagined or would have picked but that is why he is God and I am not.